Work Experience. Day one. Today was the beginning of what I can already tell will be two weeks in hell. I am really hoping that today will not be setting the standard for the next two weeks. I spent about 6 hours today wrapping books into parcels and sending the out. I know that work experience is supposed to be closer to servitude but doesn't make is any better. On the other hand I would be terrified if anyone gave me any more responsibility than licking a stamp. On the plus side everyone who works there seems to be very nice and the atmosphere is quite relaxed.
Going to bed now even though I am not tired, I need to hide in my room just so I don't have to watch my dad watch the news and look even more depressed than he already is.
Here's hoping tomorrow doesn't involve wrapping!
good night
xx

Work Experience

Tomorrow I start work experience for a Publishing company. I am very much looking forward to it but I am also worried as my sister kindly arranged it for me that I am petrified that I will do something to make her look bad. However I am assured that everyone is very nice and I have nothing to worry about. so for the next two week i shall do very little but sleep and work though I am rather hoping to go and see the new film Taken, for some reason I am a sucker for hostage/kidknap movies and this one has had particularly good reviews. I am looking forward to quite a few movies that are coming out soon;
City of Ember, but only cause it stars one the the Treadaway twins and I love them.
Brideshead Revisited, have read mixed reports but am still excited.
High School the Musical 3, shameful I know.
anyway better get to bed, bright and early start in the morning.
wish me luck
xx

going home tomorrow

tomorrow i have to go back to my dad's house for about three weeks. i am dreading it, i was just starting to get some semblance of a routine in my life and now i have to go back to the one person who fucked me up the most. i am tempted to say its not his fault, but it kinda is if he hadn't completely destroyed my trust in men i might be in a relationship by now and according to my crazy doctor, a relationship is the only thing that is gonna make me feel better. i kid you not my doctor told me that i had to find a man and settle down because that is the natural way of things i am going to change doctor as soon as humanly possible. Anyway if i decide to stay with my mum permanently i will have to switch anyway. i haven't cried in so long and now just the idea of going back to my dads kills me, and i feel even worse for feeling like that. i would ask my sister for help but it seems she is falling apart just as much as me. anyway i just have to take a deep breath and get over it cause what else can i do?

Christopher Paolini - Brisingr

Yesterday the third book of Christopher Paolini's Inheritance trilogy went on sale in England.

I had pre-ordered this book weeks in advance and had been excitedly anticipating it since the 15th of July, when I heard it was finally on its way. My mother gave the first in the series about five years ago and I have been in love with the characters and the world they inhabit ever since. When my mother gave me this book I was going through a particular sci/fi and fantasy stage when it came to books and though I have long since grown out of it I am still enchanted by this series. I have not yet finished the book (cause hey its only been a day and i do have to sleep eat and bathe myself and this book is well over 700 pages) but so far I have truly enjoyed it. I love the fabulous mix of politics, adventure, mystery and romance. The book is a wonderful mix of the poetry and adventure of Lord of the Rings and the teenage journey of Harry Potter, though significantly better than the latter and I pray that Brisingr will also have and a far superior and less vomit inducing ending (i'll let you know how that turns out). 

I would whole-heartedly recommend these books to anyone whatever the age group however depending of the level of maturity of your children, for those particularly sacred of blood, violence and monsters i would recommend you wait a few years! before you subject them to impaled babies and ritual blood lettings! do not be fooled by the appearance of this book in the childrens sections IT IS VIOLENT. 

P.s if you saw the film Eragon (the title of the first in the series) do not be put off, as so often happens the film did  not do justice to the original material!

hungover

I haven't been hungover in a while, i haven't had any alcohol at all to drink for about a month until last night. Now i am tempted to never drink again. I don't even know why i drank at all i am not a person that needs to get drunk to have fun in fact i am like a mushroom that picks up flavour, if i am around drunk people i feel like i am drunk too. but last night i was meeting new people and i get shy so i thought it would go easier after a couple of Vodkas and it did i had a nice time. The highlight of the evening was definitely a hilarious rendition of Dolly Parton's 9 to 5 by one of the guys i was with. The thing that made my hangover worse than usual was that people were smoking around me and i hate that, and also i slept and a friends house and i slept really badly and slept for only about 3 hours so today i basically wasted the day trying to sleep once i got home, and i am still tired hopefully i will sleep well tonight. i also forgot to take my pills last night which was probably why is didn't sleep so well.

anyway, in summation DON"T DRINK it never ends well.

Spud

I just finished reading Spud, a book by John Van de Ruit. It isn't the kind of book i usually read, actually it is exactly the type of book i usually read, except this one is aimed at people a little bit younger than myself. The reason I decided to read it anyway is because it was in the "we recommend" section in Waterstones, i often pick my books from there as who better to take a recommendation from than people who love book (and i assume that if you work at waterstones you like to read).

The book is about a young boy John Milton (Spud) who lives in southafrica in the 1980/90s and has just won a scholarship to a boarding school there. The book covers his first years at school, where he meets his fabulously weird friends and teachers and also chronicles his surprisingly hectic love life. I really enjoyed this book it was funny (contains the best "your mum" joke i have ever read) and i even got a little teary at the end. i deeply recommend this book to anyone young or old and especially if you went to boarding school. I enjoyed it so much I have already pre-ordered the sequel. 

The Duchess

Yesterday i went to see The Duchess, starring Keira Knightly and Ralph Finnes. Keira's performance was worthy of all the great things that i had read about it. The film is undeniably depressing but nevertheless enjoyable. Keira's performance however was the only one that i found compelling. Though the others were good they were nothing in comparison. Though the historical inaccuracies of this film have been pointed out to me i don't really care and don't have much time for those who do. when i watch a film i care about the characters, and acting and the story, this is not to say that i don't appreciate beautiful sets and cinematography,  but i am not going to give a flying @£%& if her wig is historically accurate. that said if those are the details you are worrying about you probably aren't enjoying the film that much in the first place. 

Finding a job

Finding a job is demoralizing! i don't hold out much hope for getting one especially as i have work experience that i am obligated to do for two weeks in less than a month. so i am supposed to turn up for an interview and say, i would love to have the job but in a couple of weeks i need two weeks off.  i better get ready to go out now and find some local newspapers and begin the job hunt. again!