I don't feel like people today

Today has been a really nice day, weather wise anyway. i thought i was having a really nice day sunbathing and reading my book and i had a really nice lunch as well. at about 4:30 our friends W and J came round and i just wanted them to go away! i love them they are fabulous people but as soon as they arrived i couldn't wait for them to leave. it's been awhile since i have felt like that and i don't particularly want to turn into a recluse like my mother. i think it is subconscious, that i know i am coming off my medication and i am beginning to feel worse just because i know it is going to happen. i'll do my best not to let that happen. I am going to watch a really trashy movie now, i knew it would be bad when i bought it but it has Hayden Christensen in it and i thought it might be fun. anyway watching films always makes be feel better. 

see ya 

xx