and again

i have once more lost inspiration for my book, i just don't know where it is going or how to stop it sounding like a mixture of every book i have ever read. very frustrating. i don't want to give up. if i can do this and get it published this is one job where it is almost expected that you be reclusive.

I don't feel like people today

Today has been a really nice day, weather wise anyway. i thought i was having a really nice day sunbathing and reading my book and i had a really nice lunch as well. at about 4:30 our friends W and J came round and i just wanted them to go away! i love them they are fabulous people but as soon as they arrived i couldn't wait for them to leave. it's been awhile since i have felt like that and i don't particularly want to turn into a recluse like my mother. i think it is subconscious, that i know i am coming off my medication and i am beginning to feel worse just because i know it is going to happen. i'll do my best not to let that happen. I am going to watch a really trashy movie now, i knew it would be bad when i bought it but it has Hayden Christensen in it and i thought it might be fun. anyway watching films always makes be feel better. 

see ya 

xx

Star Wars - The Clone Wars among other things

My Father, Step mother and Brother have all arrived back from their holidays last night and already I can hardly stand to be here and this is through no fault of theirs which makes me feel terrible. Anyway. Usually my favourite part of my sisterly duties is taking my lil bro to the cinema and today I took him to see Star Wars - the clone wars, George Lucas's new attempt to make even more money by lowering the age of his fan base. I am not really sure whether I enjoyed this film. I definitely wasn't bored but I was hardly stimulated either, I don't know whether or not it is fair to expect and a digital animation aimed at children to stimulate the mind of a 21 year old but what can I say I have high expectations. My lil brother definitely enjoyed it so I guess you can say it does the job of keeping children amused for over an hour and for this I commend them as I find amusing my brother for this amount of time immensely difficult.

I feel I have been in London for Far too long now and I can't wait to return to Dorset which I will do latter this week. I would get out of this hole sooner but I haven't managed to come up with a good enough excuse and my dad doesn't want me to go cause he think I will be to isolated! How isolated does he think I feel now living with people I find it hard to tolerate. Though I find it hard to tolerate my mother at times her company is infinitely superior to almost everyone else I know. I feel a Gilmore Girls comparison coming on but I shall suppress it, however I think i may go and watch and episode as series 6 arrived today.

catch (anyone who may ever read this) later
xx

Wall-e

Today, with very little coercing but coercing none the less, i went to see Wall-e with my friend Matt. barring parents we were the oldest people there by about 13 yrs but that in no way impeded our enjoyment of the film minus some choice screaming from the kids in the second row. The film while not overly long was long enough. the first 30 minutes have virtually no talking and while that is a sometime a fine tactic (see There Will Be Blood) for in this i was bored, though my boredom was quelled somewhat but the appearance of a song from the musical Hello Dolly. Hello Dolly is one of the first films i ever watched and have always loved it so unfortuately for Wall-e i spent the next hour or so wishing i was watching Hello Dolly instead. The Plot of Wall-e is tolerable and has its funny moments but it is hardly built to compete with other films i have seen lately aimed at children Narnia and even Space Chimps provided me with more stimulating viewing.

Now to reveal one of my deepest of shames.... I love High School the Musical!!
this is truly shocking to anyone who knows me. but there we are i admit my flaws freely. today in the Previews before Wall-e i saw the trailer for the third movie, i cannot wait to see it!!!