The Dark Knight

I decided to write a blog to just blab on about my day and how i am feeling and it occurred to me that i am not feeling anything. i have no feelings at all about my day, it wasn't boring, it wasn't fun, it was tiring and wasn't interesting in any way shape or form.

So lets leave aside those morbid thoughts and move on to the film i went to see yesterday, The Dark Knight. After all the hype i had HIGH expectations and i am sure that the film would have met them had i not spent so much time worrying about the boy in front of me. He must have been about ten years old. This film (in my opinion) was not appropriate for a 10 year old! Heath ledgers Joker though undeniably brilliant and chilling was very unsettling. his enjoyment of chaos and violence is not a motive I have not seen since the clockwork orange. These days we seem to prefer our villains to have an obvious motive, almost invariably money or revenge. The Joker's unpredictable and difficult to understand and is a character without empathy. This film is absolutely worth a look but its 12 rating is a joke (pardon the pun) no one under the age of 15 should watch this film. a higher rating has been avoided with a lack of nudity and swearing is minimal but it is the mental assault, the themes in this film are ones that children shouldn't be and don't need to be familiar with.

Blissful!

The weather the last couple of days has been nothing short of Blissful. The only problem is i can't handle the heat i can spend about 30mins in the sun before i have to go inside to cool down. Despite the beautiful weather i am praying for it to rain as that is the only way i can not feel guilty about going to the cinema, and i am desperate to go and see the new Batman movie.  so fingers crossed that the rain will come streaming from the heavens in the morning. 

Summer

Well is seems that summer might actually show up after all. down where i am at the moment in Dorset the sun is shining though the wind is blowing so i am not getting too hot which is greatly appreciated.  Though i enjoy the sunshine and the warmth i am not enjoying the remoteness of my surroundings, there is very little to do around here and though my mother lives here i haven't spent a prolonged period of time here in years. Therefore i have no friends, so though now i can drive and go places, i have no one to go with except my mother!! that is rather sad i feel, only topped by the fact that i have taken up knitting!!! Lord Save Me!!!

 

i am now a Graduand!

NO i have not made a spelling error. Today in my graduation ceremony i learned that us graduates get refered to as graduands. Weird! i now have a BA in Classical  Studies!  So, Yeah i graduated today and i have come down to stay with my mum for ten or so days. I just had a real heart to heart with my mum and my sister about how stressed out i am feeling, there were tears and it was generally terrible but at least that is over with now. Tomorrow i will drive my car for the first time since i passed my test. i am so excited!!

Moving

Is there anything more hectic than moving house!!

well try doing it three times a year since you were 11. I went to boarding school at 11 and ever since then I have had to move to and from school and to and form each parent at the respective sides of the country three times a year since then. You'd think that I would have it down by now but I never seem to learn. My mother is due in about an hour to pack all the thing into the car before I leave uni for her house tomorrow. She is going to scream. There is nothing I can do about it. no matter how much I try there will be something wrong and she will shout and scream. I probably sound ungrateful but trust me when i say "you don't know my mother". The woman is truly mental. OH well c'est la vie. better get back to it.  But before i do anything more constructive I have to pull this pore-strip off my nose. OUCH!!!

Passed My Test!!

I have passed my driving test! I'm so excited, i can finally drive the car that my mum so kindly bought for me (its a ford fiesta called George). It seems however that despite me having passed my family still seem to be a bit nervous about getting in the car with me! oh well screw them! i am so excited and i just can't hide it!

Being Made to like Music I Hate

I recently have been experiencing a new phenomenon of having songs i HATE (for example, A piece of me - Britney Spears) drummed into my head so much that i start to LIKE them. As a result i now have songs on my itunes that i would never have had a year ago. previously my tastes were strictly limited to folk and indie music, but now to my horror Artists like Estelle, Britney have made there way into my recently played list i am distraught! but on the other hand a more varied taste in music shouldn't really be considered a bad thing.

Mobile Phones

In my experience mobile phones bring nothing but trouble. My phone at the moment has decided not to work. I am a student and currently live in a student house, i have no land line and so now apart from e-mail i am cut off from the world which is incredibly annoying as i have my driving test tomorrow and no means by which to contact my instructor!!

Anyway mobiles just deciding not to work on a whim is one of the many reasons that i think that they are a horrible invention. For one you are always in touch with the world, there is nowhere to hide from nagging parents or step-parents. For another the drunken and ill advised phone call was far less common before the proliferation of mobile phones, it was not possible to just stumble out of a club at 2 in the morning and wake up some unsuspecting person with loud and slurred declarations of love. Before mobile phones there was also very little chance of a text message going astray and coming to the attention of the wrong person.

However though i maintain that these arguments are solid i still wouldn't be without mine, except for at this current moment is time when it doesn't fucking work!!

Inspiration

I am feeling very uninspired over the last few months. I need a muse. Why are muses things that are never mentioned any more? did they go out of style with the cravat? Artists, writers and musicians are now all too eager to take all the credit and not even acknowledge those who inspired them.  As a single woman what i want more than anything in a partner is someone who will inspire me. 

I love to write i do it all the time, on the train, in a restaurant a handy napkin is quite likely to be scarred with my thoughts. I have been working on a book for almost a year now and i am getting nowhere because i seem to have lost my inspiration. I need some form of inspiration to get things moving again because i refuse to leave this project unfinished like everything else in my life. 

Anyone got any tips for removing writers block?

5th post

I started this blog just over an hour ago and i am already on my 5th posting, i think it is fair to say that i won't continue to post so often but for the moment it is a nice novelty to be able to babble on about whatever i want. 

What i want to rant about now is the lack of decent television programs! the best program i have watched in recent years was Studio 60 on the sunset strip, yet this was cancelled after its first season for reasons that are incomprehensible to me. the only failing of the program as far as i can see was the slightly too neat ending to the series. However this can be attributed to the writers need to wrap up the story because they were going to be cancelled. 

It depresses me greatly that the proliferation of reality TV programs is due to their popularity with viewers. it seems to me that the reason that more intelligent and witty programing is not made is because reality tv shows are cheaper to make and therefore more profitable than those that don't kill brain cells

Are there any programs you would recommend to prove me wrong?

Shantaram

I recently went on holiday to Corfu with the three other students that i live with. I get on well with all the girls but this holiday was definitely not my idea. We were staying in a place called Kavos which is a soul destroying place for the following reasons. The only reason that i agreed to go to Corfu was because i was a big fan of the book My Family and Other Animals written by Gerald Durrell, so you can imagine my dismay when we arrive in Kavos to find that all there is in this tiny town is clubs and restaurants and horribly cheesy gift shops and the crowning glory was the McDonalds on the main strip.  

so having experienced such disappointment with my surroundings i was delighted when i began to read the book that i had bought with me for some pool side reading. Shantaram  is a fantastic book, i could barely put it down the whole holiday, it was the first time i have read a book and been pleased that it was over 900 pages long.  The story was exciting and the characters were lovable and i was still reading it on the plane home. Now i am hoping that someone can explain to me why i haven't had the slightest inclination to pick it up and finish it since i touched back down in England. Sadly the most plausible option i can come up with was that once i was back in front of my computer and television i simply have more interesting things to do. 

Despite not having finished the book yet i still cannot recommend this book highly enough to anyone, so please go out and buy it and thank me when you enjoy it and recommend it to all your friends.

Getting me down

What is getting me down right now is the awkwardness of this time in my life. i have just graduated from university and while i have been studying i have been living away from home and i am very used to my independence, especially as before this i was at boarding school. Now i am about to move back into a house with my father (who i don't have the best of relationships with) my step-mother (even worse) and my half-brother who i love to pieces but at 10 years old you can imagine he is a little trying. For the past three years i have been able to eat, sleep and go out when i like and now i am having to go back to answering for my movements every minute of the goddamned day. I don't know how i am going to cope!!

Things that get to me!!

In an attempt to limit the bitter ranting that i feel is inherent to many blogs, i am going to start of with a list of things that really really get to me.

1. People that stop in the middle of the street with no warning.

2. People who use the word gay to describe something as uncool.

3. Reality television.

4. Spongebob squarepants. WHY!!!!

5. People who talk at the theatre.

6. Drivers who don't indicate.

7. Bad TV.  eg. Deal or no deal, big brother, i am a celebrity get me out of here, jerry springer.

8. people who claim to have strong convictions but no good reasons for holding them. If you have an opinion you should bloody well know why.

I will amend this list as and when i feel sufficiently irate. Please feel free to suggest additions.

My First

This is the first time a have ever written a blog, and though i have posted things on the internet before (poetry unfortunately) i have never posted anything where i have completely free reign to say whatever i want. 

Now that i have the oppotunity to say whatever i wish my mind is completely blank. Hopefully soon i will remember why i wanted to write a blog in the first place and wow anyone who may read this blog with the sheer number of things a single person can find to rant about. Once those run out i will turn to subjects perhaps more worthy of discussion.