i'm scared

i'm scared that i am not going to be able to take life much longer and that i am going to have to go back to my doctor and ask to go on anti-depressants again. i really don't want to but i am scared!

Twilight

i loved this movie. Ok it is not a great cinematic masterpiece but it has all the necessary elements of a romantic movie, love, passion, danger, and of course a gorgeous hero! i know this film isn't for everyone, the plot is no surprise and the script isn't incredible, but as far as a bit of good old teenage wish fulfillment it is top notch!!

a brilliant way to waste time.

if you are bored i promise that you will find something that will entertain you here

www.oneplusyou.com/q

if you're wondering i can take 12 five year olds in a fight!

Why haven't i grown out of teen angst!

i am 21 years old, so why am i still going through all this teenage crap, should i be over the depression, feeling lonely and the identity crisis. its just not fair!! i need to grow up. someone tell me how!!

low dose dexamethasone suppression test

This complexly named test i am doing over these 48 hours is not hard, it involves peeing into a jug and taking a pill every six hours. though it isn't hard and i don't have anyone watching me it is still completely humiliating!!!! it also means i can't leave the house for too long incase i need to pee which is rather inconvenient, not to mention dull. 

This is also a little worrying considering if this test comes back positive my doctor hasn't explained to me what happens, so i am guessing its not great. so fingers crossed i am absolutely fine, so if you have them spare cross your fingers for me!!